THESIS DEFENSE

Today's the start of our graduation rehearsals T__T Nothing much happened except we all got bored singing the special number songs and stuff. We were dismissed as early as 1:30 pm. Unfortunately for the people who are not done with the thesis defense, they'll have to do it after that and wait for their turn. We're one (my groupmates and I) of the unfortunate ones T__T I did like, 30+ sitting positions while waiting on my seat :)) LOL. AND NOW FOR OUR TURN. I wasn't very nervous at all. I don't know, I somehow felt like that I don't wanna get nervous at all. I just wanted to get that over with. Blah blah, fast forward. IT WENT WELL. Yesssss. I am in loss for the right english words in between, but I still was praised by our teacher O__O She told us that I was able to express myself, blah blah blah. The whole report was "not bad" as she have said to us. OKAY. Atleast we weren't scolded or anything for not preparing well for it. Atleast, as a leader, I did something good this time, without stuttering, and shaking hands out of nervousness in between :)

NIGHTMARE

Whenever I dream about something really scary, I always ended up waking in a bad condition- e.g, headaches, etc. Last night, my classmate and I were texting till 10:00 pm and so. I'm already feeling sleepy, since I was lying on my bed as we had that text thing. I don't remember what time we loss communication because I already fell asleep with my cellphone under my pillow.

In my dream, I saw blood all over the 2nd floor of our house. I saw knives. As I saw the one responsible with the killing and stuff, I got scared. The one in my dream who was killing and using a knife to stab someone else is a member of my family. Before I knew, that someone went downstairs. At that time, I just wanted to escape. I wanted to run outside. I wanted to get as far away from the stabber as possible. So I made a plan. I quietly went downstairs. The killer, as I can remembered in my dream is not that too maniac. He's very calm. As I went downstairs, I saw him near our dinner table. I silently went to the kitchen counter, as if I am not trying to harm him or do anything too scandalous to make him mad and kill me. I faced him, and I looked at him. As I do that, very silently I used my right arm to grab a knife behind my back, just above the kitchen counter. I threw at at him and it stabbed his chest. I got more knives and threw it as fast as I could. I thought I could kill him. But I was wrong. He started to chase me around the table. I WAS FREAKING OUT. What if he caught me? Will he kill me? I'm afraid to get stabbed! I managed to escape, with my little sister. We were running as fast as we could on the street. I saw my grandmother managing to get outside the house. We were shouting to her to catch up with us, but she refused. My mother also. They wanted to stay at the house O__O After months, my sister and I were back at our house. Since that family member was still living in there, I was scared to go back. But my mother re-assured us that it was okay. The rest of the dream, I was trying to stay as from away at him as possible because he'll might kill or stab me suddenly, and being TOTALLY NERVOUS WHENEVER HE'S TRYING TO GET CLOSE.

If you know what this kind of dream means, let me know. I badly wanna know. Because its the second time I dreamed about death. The first time is, its days before Francis M. was deceased.